~ Life was made for something, don't you think?

Do such a bad thing, with no apparent reason... I can't stop thinking about him, although I perfectly know he's an asshole and will never give me any value... Forgetting what happened and ruin, in some way, the chances I might have in the future with that amazing guy... And give that kind of attention to someone else that I don't have feeling for...
Yes, you can hit me now...

I'm not happy.
I miss something...something that I'm still trying to figure out what it is...or who, or somewhere...I don't know... But I know for sure that something is not right.
Maybe I could describe it but I know that I would get more questions that answers so...

In these days I've been at home mostly of the time, specially at night. My friends have to study and then there's no "all night long" to nobody. Then I'm at home and I start to question all those stuff and, when I realize, I'm sad. I'm with that tightness in my heart.

There's a part of me that is missing somewhere. Maybe with someone...I don't know for sure. It's all so abstract... And I don't even know exactly the why of all this big stupid drama... The human being is so damn weird!
People live all their lifes trying to construct something, looking for the happiness, looking for some point to reach... And, in the end, what for is this all about? What is the real point…