~ Life was made for something, don't you think?

Do such a bad thing, with no apparent reason... I can't stop thinking about him, although I perfectly know he's an asshole and will never give me any value... Forgetting what happened and ruin, in some way, the chances I might have in the future with that amazing guy... And give that kind of attention to someone else that I don't have feeling for... Yes, you can hit me now...

It's normal a person stress out with not apparent reason? . I must be so stupid! . I don't know what's wrong with me...I stress out with everybody, then they get mad with my, course! I beg apologizes but either way I don't know why I do that, I mean, I have no idea why I stress so much with everything... Like, I hate monotony. The same things, the same conversations...everything! (you can see that by my hair, for example -.-) Am I being selfish? Of course I am! But I don't do that 'cause I want it...I don't know why I am like this... I don't know why I keep away the persons who I like... I need to have my own space, some times...well, many times. I need it to think about everything in my life and organize my head. I just need to find my own balance again. Well, that doesn't happens in mostly of the times and after 5 minutes I'm stressing again with the most important persons in my life. 'Course they are right being upset with me... I'm no...