Sunday, April 29, 2018

So Accurate.

“I didn’t need your help!
Seems like you did.
He was just drunk!
I’m drunk! Am I through myself at you?
No, you’re worse! 
You wanna talk to me, get to know me, see into my soul and screw and screw and screw until you’re done with me…
Is that what you think?
That’s what I know.”

in The Vampire Diaries [S01E01]

Tuesday, April 24, 2018

Evanescence ~ The Change

Thought that I was strong
I know the words I need to say
Frozen in my place
I let the moment slip away

I've been screaming
On the inside
And I know you feel the pain
Can you hear me?

Say it's over
Yes, it's over
But I need you anyway
Say you love me, but it's not enough

Never meant to lie
But I'm not the girl you think you know
The more that I am with you
The more that I am all alone


Not that I'm so different
Not that I don't see
The dying light of what we used to be
How can I forgive you?
You changed!
And I'm a liar by your side
I'm about to lose my mind


Monday, March 5, 2018

Just disappointed.

When you thought nothing else could surprise you and BANG!... She made you see and feel exactly the opposite. #wherewillhumanityendwhenwehavenohumanitywithinus #whenprideandselfishnesswin

Congrats, you're officially the worse mother ever.

Saturday, October 21, 2017

Evanescence ~ Imperfection

The more you try to fight it
The more you try to hide it
The more infected, rejected, you feel alone inside it
You know you can't deny it
The world's a little more fucked up everyday

I'm gonna save you from it
Together we'll outrun it
Just don't give into the fear
So many things I would've told you If I knew that I was never gonna see you again

I wanna lift you up into the light that you deserve
I wanna take your pain into myself so you won't hurt

Don't you dare surrender
Don't leave me here without you
'Cause I could never
Replace your perfect imperfection

The way you look us over
Your counterfeit composure
Pushing again and again and sinking lower and lower
The world is on our shoulders
Do you really know the weight of the words you say?

You want a little of it
You just can't let go of it
You've got an ego to feed
Too late to rise above it
Don't look now but the little girl's got a grenade


We stand undefined
Can't be drawn with a straight line
This will not be our ending
We are alive, we are alive


So accurate at the present time.

Chapter 48

"The next morning’s meditation is a disaster. Desperate, I beg my mind to please step aside and let me find God, but my mind stares at me with steely power and says, “I will never let you pass me by.”
That whole next day, in fact, I’m so hateful and angry that I fear for the life of anyone who crosses my path. I snap at this poor German woman because she doesn’t speak English well and she can’t understand when I tell her where the bookstore is. I’m so ashamed of my rage that I go hide in (yet another!) bathroom and cry, and then I’m so mad at myself for crying as I remember my Guru’s counsel not to fall apart all the time or else it becomes a habit…but what does she know about it? She’s enlightened. She can’t help me. She doesn’t understand me.
I don’t what anyone to talk to me. I can’t tolerate anyone’s face right now. I even manage to dodge Richard from Texas for a while, but he eventually finds me at dinner and sits down – brave man – in my black smoke of self-loathing.
“What’s got you all wadded up?” he drawls, toothpick in mouth, as usual.
“Don’t ask,” I say, but then I start talking and tell him every bit of it, concluding with, “And worst of all, I can’t stop obsessing over David. I thought I was over him, but it’s all coming up again.”
He says, “Give it another six months, you’ll feel better.”
“I’ve already given it twelve months, Richard.”
“Then give it six more. Just keep throwin’ six months at it till it goes away. Stuff like this takes time.”
I exhale hotly through my nose, bull-like.
“Groceries,” Richard says, “listen to me. Someday you’re gonna look back on this moment of your life as such a sweet time of grieving. You’ll see that you were in mourning and your heart was broken, but your life was changing and you were in the best possible place in the world for it – in a beautiful place of worship, surrounded be grace. Take this time, every minute of it. Let things work themselves here in India.”
“But I really loved him.”
“Big deal. So you fell in love with someone. Don’t you see what happened? This guy touched a place in your heart deeper that you thought you were capable of reaching, I mean you got zapped, kiddo. But that love you felt, that’s just the beginning. You just got a taste of love. That’s just limited little rinky-dink mortal love. Wait till you see how much more deeply you can love than that. Heck, Groceries – you have the capacity to someday love the whole world. It’s your destiny. Don’t laugh.”
“I’m not laughing.” I was actually crying. “And please don’t laugh at me now, but I think the reason it’s so hard for me to get over this guy is because I seriously believed David was my soul mate.”
“He probably was. Your problem is you don’t understand what that word means. People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that’s holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then they leave. And thank God for it. Your problem is, you just can’t let this one go. It’s over Groceries. David’s purpose was to shake you up, drive you out of that marriage that you needed to leave, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light could get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you had to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master and beat it. That was his job, and he did great, but now it’s over. Problem is, you can’t accept that this relationship had a real short shelf life. You’re like a dog at the dump, baby – you’re just lickin’ at an empty tin can, trying to get more nutrition out of it. And if you’re not careful, that can’s gonna get stuck on your snout forever and make your life miserable. So drop it.”
“But I love him.”
“So love him.”
“But I miss him.”
“So miss him. Send him some love and light every time you think about him, and then drop it. You’re just afraid to let go of the last bits of David because then you’ll really be alone, and Liz Gilbert is scared to death of what will happen if she’s really alone. But here’s what you gotta understand, Groceries. If you clear out all that space in your mind that you’re using right now to obsess about this guy, you’ll have a vacuum there, an open spot – a doorway. And guess what the universe will do with that doorway? It will rush in – God will rush in – and fill you with more love than you ever dreamed. So stop using David to block that door. Let it go.”
“But I wish me and David could –“
He cuts me off. “See, now that’s your problem. You’re wishin’ too much baby. You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughtta be.”
This line gives me the first laugh of the day.
Then I ask Richard, “So how long will it be before all this grieving passes?”
“You want an exact date?”
“Somethin’ you can circle on your calendar?”
“Lemme tell you something, Groceries – you got some serious control issues.”
My rage at this statement consumes me like fire. Control issues? ME? I actually consider slapping Richard for this insult. And then, from right down inside the intensity of my offended outrage comes the truth. The immediate, obvious, laughable truth.
He’s totally right.
The fire passes out of me, fast as it came.
“you’re totally right,” I say.
“I know I’m right, baby. Listen, you’re a powerful woman, and you’re used to getting what you want out of life, and you didn’t get what you wanted in your last few relationships and it’s got you all jammed up. Your husband didn’t behave the way you wanted him to and David didn’t either. Life didn’t go your way for once. And nothing pisses off a control freak more than life not goin’ her way.”
“Don’t call me a control freak, please.”
“You have got control issues, Groceries. Come on. Nobody ever told you this before?”
(Well…yeah. But the thing about divorcing someone is that you kind of stop listening to all the mean stuff they say about you after a while.)
So I buck up and admit it. “OK, I think you’re probably right. Maybe I do have a problem with control. It’s just weird that you noticed. Because I don’t think it’s that obvious on the surface. I mean – I bet most people can’t see my control issues when they first look at me.”
Richard from Texas laughs so hard he almost loses his toothpick.
“They can’t? Honey – Ray Charles could see your control issues!”
“OK, I think I’m done with this conversation now, thank you.”
“You gotta learn how to let go, Groceries. Otherwise you’re gonna make yourself sick. Never gonna have a good night’s sleep again. You’ll just toss and turn forever, beatin’ on yourself for being such a fiasco in life. What’s wrong with me? How come I screw up all my relationships? Why am I such a failure? Lemme guess – that’s probably what you were up at all hours doin’ to yourself again last night.”
“All right, Richard, that’s enough,” I say. “I don’t want you walking around inside my head anymore.”
“Shut the door then,” says my big Texas Yogi."

Monday, October 9, 2017


Harder...Just make it stop.

Paramore ~ Hello Cold World

I feel happy, I feel sad, I feel like running through the walls
I'm overjoyed, I'm undecided, I don't know who I am
Well maybe I'm not perfect, at least I'm working on it

22 is like the worst idea that I have ever had
It's too much pain, it's too much freedom, what should I do with this?
It's not the way you plan it, it's how you make it happen

It's such a cold, cold world (hello, cold world)
And I can't get out
so I'll just make the best of everything I'll never have
Such a cold, cold world (hello, cold world)
And it's got me down
But I'll get right back up as long as it spins around

Girls and boys keep lining up to see if they can measure up
They look good and they feel wild, but it won't never be enough
You say you're really hurting, at least you're feeling something

We can hope and we can pray that everything would work out fine
You can't just stay out on your knees, the revolution is outside
You wanna make a difference, get out and go, begin it

Whoah, get out and go, begin it


Don't need my eyes open
Oh I, I just want to feel something


Latada e Receção ao Caloiro '17 {photolog}

Latada '17

Família Matemática 

Só sabe quem sente 💙

Madrinha e afilhada de volta a Braga

Receção ao Caloiro '17

Daquelas fotos que não sabes como apreceram, mas gostas muito 😛

As retardadas do Absinto Limão 😝💣💪

Última foto da Receção

Thursday, August 17, 2017

7:15am ~ Mood jwqoFjideTjeldacavbSjewdu ON!

All that I want
Is to wake up fine
Tell me that I’m alright
That I ain’t gonna die
All that I want
Is a hole in the ground
You can tell me when it’s alright
For me to come out

Hard times
Gonna make you wonder why you even try
Gonna take you down and laugh when you cry
These lives
And I still don't know how I even survive
And I gotta get to rock bottom

Walking around
With my little raincloud
Hanging over my head
And it ain’t coming down
Where do I go?
Gimme some sort of sign
Hit me with lightning!
Maybe I’ll come alive


Tell my friends I’m coming down
We'll kick it when I hit the ground

Friday, August 11, 2017


I present to you [Lord] Cookie, the newest member of the family! (:
Isn't he cute?? 

Saturday, July 22, 2017

Chester Bennington

I still can't believe it...

Suicide it's a very sensitive subject and I haven't figured out yet if you have to be really brave to take your own life or really coward... I dont' know. I think the only person who really knew what was going on and how it felt was him and all the people who went through it in their lives. Don't know, don't judge.
Rest in peace now buddy, you' will be missed.

20.03.1976 - 20.07.2017

Procuro Gatinho para Adoção

(foto ilustrativa)

Procuro gatinho macho entre 1 a 3 meses de idade para adoção responsável (zona norte do país). Será para habitar numa vivenda com varanda grande e muito espaço interior.
Entrem em contacto comigo através do blog e 3 enviem informações do gatinho como foto, vacinação, estado de saúde, personalidade, entre outros que acharem necessário. 
Deixem o vosso e-mail em comentário de forma a conseguir contactar-vos.

Obrigada! (:

Sunday, May 21, 2017

Sobre a última semana...

Pois é...o Enterro da Gata acabou ontem e já deixa saudades... Deixo aqui algumas fotos destes dias (noites) memoráveis (são poucas e falta MUITA gente, mas foi o melhor que se conseguiu :p). Em relação aos concertos...gostei muito de ver a Ordem outra vez xD O Cortejo, muito muito grave xD mas valeu a pena! (: Obrigada Matemática! :')

Cortejo '17

Enterro '17

Enterro '17