I must be really stupid...

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Seriously? Am I what? Ten years old? Come on!
Be rational Vanessa and stop over thinking about this!! BE RATIONAL!!
It's impossible okay?! And even if it eventually happened with someone else doesn't mean it will happen to you just because it's you and because you are the most unlucky girl in the hole world and bla bla bla...

I need someone to slap me right now... Please...

There's an explanation to everything and it's NOT that! Can't be...
I just want someone to tell me that this is all my imagination and everything is okay as I want it to be... I need to be sure, I need that to be okay...I need the confirmation that I want...please make it real and don't let this happen to me... PLEASE!! (God, if you really exist this is the right time to show your power!)

And I don't need people judging me because what I think...people are different ok?! Face it! I'm not a better nor worse person just because I don't think in the same way as you do.

I don't want this and I just hope this is all my imagination, it has to be!

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