~ Life was made for something, don't you think?

To my subconscious, or to the perfect bestfriend...whatever... It will be as if I'm talking with someone who I truly trust and that's aware of everything that goes on in my life. In other words, my inner self, so to speak xP Ok, it's kind of a diary. Well, let's do this... This is been awkward... Sometimes I think I need someone like me, an other me, who understand exactly what I'm feeling and what I'm going through... It's so difficult organize all my ideas, my feeling...my time, my money...my life... You know, yesterday I just freaked out... I HATE that people try to control me and, as the case is, sent me messages like they were saying "hey, I'm here and you're not giving me attention" , or "answer me, I'm waiting for your words" , or "I don't have life so I'm just waiting till you talk to me" ...ohhh COME ON!!! I hate this kind of persons that make themselves poor guys and that everything is against them....

Are almost 4:30am and here I am, with nothing more interesting to do than listen music (right now I'm obcessed with the music "When I look at you" from Miley Cyrus...dunno why -.- ) and write something to you readers at this point of the day...I mean, night! Well, I'm at mom's home eheh (despite the discussions that we had already -.- ). I came today and I'll stay to till the next Sunday (day 4) because it's Easter Season. We on Universidade do Minho only have a week of holidays because the other week it's on Enterro da Gata , wich is almost here!!! I'm so excited for that...will be like, THE week! Till then I'll continue to save money... lol The truth is that, till then, a lot of things can happen... A good quote to say to my mom... Ok, yesterday (Thursday) was our course dinner...was nice but it could have been better if, like, 80% of the people had gone... Anyway, was nice because was kind of a more personal thing...we were all together the...

Feelings, fellings, fellings...and more feelings... This age is really confused... I have not been inspired to come here and write a few words to you... I'm sorry. Hey, this is how university is :P Another HUGE problem about university: money ! Right now I have 10€ till Tuesday...seems like it is a good amount but, I have to eat and, the biggest problem, cigarretes. If you're not a smoker please DON'T START! It's just bad to your health and to your pocket -.- Not counting that I'll have the course dinner in the next Thursday and it's always needed between 20 to 30€... I'm screwed... Other thing that I'm screwed too, studies. I'm actually with no patience to that... My mom would love this argument -.- I feel displaced in that classes, with no friends, no one to talk, no one to help... It's just stupid... But I have to focus myself...I have to do them this year!!! It's better to me and then my mom will not be mad with me...awesome! loooool Tha...

I said that I was with a bad feeling! I was right!!! . Fuck everything!!! I hate this stuff! ...

I'm afraid of the next two days... Will be my 24 ( praxe ... the stuff that I've talked about in the other post) and, basically, I'm scared! I don't know why, 'cause I was so excited with this praxe but now I'm not anymore. I'm with a tightness in my heart that something bad will happen... I DON'T KNOW WHY!!! I'm with a feeling that I'll get really angry/upset with someone and send him/her to the hell... (this one is about a message that someone sent me today about the praxe and made me stay angry for the rest of the day...well, the rest of the afternoon...but I'll talk about this next xP ) . That's why I'm saying that I'll loose my head tomorrow... But I already talked with my praxe 's godmother and she said that if something happened she will be there to support me...so sweet! She's great! I love her S2* Anyway I'm still afraid... Ok, talking now about good stuff... Last night I went to BA with my friends! Well, m...